For God does speak—now one way, now another— though no one perceives it. Job 33:14 (NIV)
It’s been some time since I’ve written in Thought for the Day. You see a long time ago when I started this, I promised myself that if God didn’t give me something to write, I wasn’t going to post. I never wanted this ministry to be about what I thought. I wanted the Holy Spirit to be the one leading, not me. I knew that if God wasn’t leading, the thoughts would become watered down with my human thoughts.
Back toward the end of September, the thoughts starting coming less frequently. There were days I got an idea of something to write about but, I was not impressed to post it.
As I’ve looked back on this time and prayed about it, a few ideas struck me.
First, God has still been talking. He’s been talking about a journey we are walking right now. He is talking to me on a regular basis about some personal things. As I prayed about the fact that I have not been feeling called to write each day, I’ve asked God “What’s up? Am I too distracted? Is there something messed up in my hearing? My motivation?” After lots of praying about this, I don’t think so.
Last night, as I lay in bed and talked to God about it some more, one thought did cross my mind. The fact that God is silent where my writing is concerned and that we are still talking, just about different subjects, is very much a relationship.
Sometimes, even when you are very close to someone, you don’t always talk about everything that needs to be said. You don’t always talk about everything that is on your mind. Sometimes, there is silence. And let’s face it. God is God. He can talk when and where he wants.
It would be really dangerous for me to assume that he is always going to react and speak exactly how I want him to. Just like I should never expect that from my husband or any other close friend, I certainly should never assume with God.
What I will do though, is acknowledge that he is the leader in this relationship and that if he wants to be silent, so be it. I will follow in that silence and wait. Because when he speaks, it will definitely be worth it.